Before my post I'll mention I'm doing BEDA (Blog every day in April) again. Here is the link. This is an expanded version of today's post. maureenjohnson.ning.com/profiles/blog/list
So tonight I am heading out to celebrate my birthday but as usual there was a SNAFU in the plan. Someone else just cancelled their attendance. And I don't really mind that people aren't coming, I was just really excited that FOR ONCE someone would be around besides my family. Last year I never went out with my friends. It was exam time and we were all scattered so an "official" celebration never happened. And I really was okay with that. And I've been okay with it since the last real party I had was when I was 18 in my last year of hight school... but since then something ALWAYS goes wrong -
19 reservation cancelled
20 the bar sucked so we ended up somewhere else
21 I didn't plan anything (I may have watched Lord of the Rings with my sister)
22 I graduated the day before so the whole program went to a club that weekend. I never celebrated my birthday.
23 - cancelled
But this year I'm all muddled up and have no idea what will happened next year. Will I have any real friends to celebrate with? My family will be here and I'll be in BC. And now I feel pathetic for feeling sorry for myself.
I have some friends who are coming and I love those friends too, but when only one of my BEST friends can make it out of all the really cool people I hang out with and it kind of sucks. I mean other cool people will be there, but tonight some how turned into meet everyone's new boyfriend night. So I think I might be the ONLY single person there. And the one other single girl just cancelled on me. I spend much of my time with my friends taking care of them and listening to them. There were two people I could guarantee that would pay attention to me on my birthday and they aren't coming.